March 28, 2019
It's going on forty-eight hours since I got the break-up text. I am doing all right. I do wish that somehow I could communicate with Steve. I wish that he was reading this blog but why would he? I am going to move on and make the best of things because that is what I do. How do you get over a break-up?
What a dunce
Here I am on the internet telling everyone that someone broke up with me. Where is my pride? Maybe I can delete the other blog and start over and say that I broke up with Steve. But that would be a lie and the internet is already filled with lies. I've got to stick to the truth even if it makes me a dunce.
Telling the truth is hard
It is hard to tell the truth but what have I got to lose? I want to connect with you, my reader. I want you to engage you. And, the only way I know how to do that is to tell you the truth. It is day 2 and I am over the shock of getting that break up letter. Sure, I wish that he would contact me and say that it has all been a mistake but that's only because I am human and not a robot. I have feelings, dreams and wishes.
Pen pals will save me
I signed back on to penpalsnow.com. It is a pretty good website for finding a pen pal. Of course, there are the creeps and married men who are looking to have an online affair. So, beware if you sign up on that website. Still, you can find some nice people there. I have two pen pals that I have been writing to for fifteen years. They are both very good friends of mine. Anyway, I am hoping to make some new friends. I love exchanging emails. You ought to try it. Just be careful to whom you reply to and keep your wits about you. The really good ones stick around and the bad ones fall away.
I am also keeping busy. I have a ton of stuff to write and a lot of books to read. Then of course there are the movies and the binge watching of series. I don't have time to sit and weep over what has happened - even though I might want to. I try not to think of Steve very often. I try not to think of what he is doing. I just don't believe how a man can go from saying that you are the love of his life and then writing a business type letter to break up with you. What happened - I will never know.
Making a decision
I've made the decision to just move on. Sure, I hope he comes back and says - look I had to do what I did but I love you and please come back to me. Okay, now that is not going to happen so I have to flush that out of my brain. It is unhealthy to think that way. It stops the pain for a little while but in the end, it just makes things worse. I have to stick with my decision, right?
I lost Don and that was really hard. He died of cancer right in front of me. Right now there are more people who are losing the loves of their life right in front of them. This breakup is nothing compared to that. So many women are dealing with great loss so I have no reason to mourn or weep over something as trivial as this relationship. I only had it for months - so be strong and carry on. I'd rather offer up prayers to help those who are in the thick of it. I know that people prayed for me and I did get stronger. Prayers work.
Talking about God
I am going to mention spiritual stuff in my blog. If I lose you as a reader, I am sorry. I made the decision to include God in this blog. You will find that I am not a fanatic but I am a spiritual person. Stick around and find that I am quite a regular real person. Even though now, you might be thinking I am a wimp about this breakup.
Tomorrow no long blog entries about Steve
I will try tomorrow not to mention Steve at all. Well, maybe just a little bit at the beginning? Are you going through a break up? Are you grieving? Share your story with me. I would like to add you to my blog if you want. I know I am not the only one going through this. We are tougher together than we are apart - so please leave a comment.
I'd love to know what you think